Yeah, so it’s been a while since I updated this. Football season’s on, work is work, the rest of life remains pretty much the same. I recently had to drop $3,000 on car repairs, which wasn’t fun at all. Chris is more than likely to move next year, which also isn’t fun. My football team is not doing well – not fun #3. I’ve decided to quit the band’s board as soon as new elections are held (hopefully within the next month or so), mainly because it has grown increasingly negative thanks to the efforts of one board member who is unlikely to quit. I’ll devote an entire blog entry to that debacle in the near future. The North American board, on the other hand, seems to be largely uninterested in doing much – but there’s not a lot of hostility.
Just not a lot of pleasantness going on, huh?
Which leads me to a very vivid dream that I had last night – one that is rapidly fading from my mind. It was one of those things that caused me to wake up feeling helpless, then experience a moment of incredible relief upon the realization that it wasn’t real life, then wonder what I was trying to work out in my mind that caused me to dream it in the first place.
The dream involved a debacle with three automobiles. All of them mine.
One was a Toyota Camry. One was a 1976 AMC Gremlin. The third was a vintage Excalibur. Why I had these three cars, I don’t know, but I apparently had managed to get all of them to the streets of downtown Atlanta in order that I might attend some sort of large festival.
From what I remember, all were damaged – one at a time – as I was trying to fight the traffic to leave the festival. It was sort of a planning ahead situation, in that I knew that, once one car was involved in a wreck, I’d move to the next one. In the end, both the Camry and the Gremlin had major front-end damage, and the Excalibur had to be towed with what I believe was a damaged battery.
I’m not sure how I got home, but upon waking up the next morning, I knew only where the Excalibur was. I had no idea where – indeed IF – the other two vehicles had been towed. In telling people what had happened (I called my boss to tell her that I couldn’t get to work and would have to work from home, and for some reason I also told Larry about the situation), I discovered that I really couldn’t remember WHAT had happened to each of the cars. Left to my own to think about things, I was in near-panic mode because I realized that I’d probably never find the two cheaper cars, and the Excalibur was slowly draining all of my finances.
Other things that I remember are that the Camry was somehow related to Jenny (it might have been owned by her) and that, while I loved the Excalibur, I realized that it was completely impractical and expensive. At the same time, I knew that I’d do whatever it took to keep it. I also knew where it was, but had no clue about the other two. I called the mechanic who had towed it (I had the number memorized), but the shop was closed – all of the folks there had taken the day off to attend a tire convention. No kidding!
I was very concerned about how to break the news to Jenny that I didn’t know where the Camry was, and was wondering what I could sell in order to have it fixed before she got home. I know that that last sentence made absolutely no sense – this was a dream, people.
As I said, I woke up and was at first completely relieved that this was all a dream. Then I started to wonder what it was all about.
The obvious choice would be that it had to do with thoughts about all of the repairs I recently had done to my car. I like the Audi and it carries a certain amount of status – do I subconsciously think that it’s too expensive? If so, what did the other two cars represent?
A close second would have to be that it has something to do with my love life. I’ve only had four “loves” in my life, and one of them ended nearly 30 years ago. The other three have all been fairly recent – Jenny, Audrey and Chris.
I’m leaning towards this interpretation, but am having a terrible time figuring out which car represents which woman. It seems fairly obvious that the Camry would be Jenny – which leaves the Gremlin and the Excalibur, and Audrey and Chris. Which is which? And what would it all mean anyway? If I’m giving myself subliminal advice, I don’t know what it is.
For starters, the flashiest of the three cars –and the most expensive – was undoubtedly the Excalibur. The flashiest (and most expensive) of the women is Audrey. However, I knew where the Excalibur was (in other words, I hadn’t lost it), and I was willing to do what it took to keep it – that points to Chris.
As far as the Gremlin goes, I really liked my Gremlin (in real life – I drove a 1976 Gremlin for about 4 years). It was easy to work with, dependable, inexpensive, etc. And in the dream, I remember thinking, “I should have just taken the Gremlin. I’d know where it was now and I could afford to fix it.”
Given that Audrey is now married, does that make the Gremlin her and I’m kicking myself for losing her? Or is the Gremlin Chris and I’m warning myself NOT to lose her? After all, I’ve never owned an Excalibur and never expect to. A female equivalent would be, say, a head cheerleader.
So. Is my subconscious mind trying to tell me something? Should I get rid of the Audi and buy a car with no payments? Should I redouble my efforts to keep Chris in Georgia? Should I try to sabotage Audrey’s marriage (don’t worry if you’re reading this, Aud – it was a hypothetical)? Should I borrow Jenny’s car from now on?
Or is the whole thing just a consequence of the fact that I had barbecued sausage for dinner last night?
TWD